Hey ladies, I hope all is well. So I wasn't going to write about this but all of you sugars share your stores so it is only fair for me to do the same. Over the past few months a lot has been going on. School, I got some sugar (short term but rather sweet) and also a relationship.
So firstly, as you probably know I wasn't successful at my university application which was a DAMNNN good blessing from God! I am taking A-Levels now, finished my AS exams a few days ago and just waiting on the results (I will be waiting for a while as they get published in August), I hope I did well, seriously! I believe this was the better option than trying to take the short route and jumping into nursing. Besides, I hate blood and anything in relation to it. I am happy with the college that I am at and I am grateful they (my college) accepted me. I view my A-Levels as a way which can help me to achieve my goals and dreams, university, career e.t.c.
Then the sugar, I met a guy 47 year old on SD.com this was like my first REAL REAL SD experience. He was so sweet, handsome looking not too tall (or should I say as tall as I'd like) with a bit of a belly. I do prefer muscular men and all but I put this preference on the sideline for a short while (what is one to do when the sugar is sweet?). I won't go into detail in-case he SOMEHOW comes across this blog lol, I know I sound paranoid but cut me some slack. I wouldn't want to burn bridges babe's... All of the sugar was given in ££££'s, I love presents and gifts but I live with parents, my mother is incredibly nosy, I'd never tell her I have a boyfriend later on an SD!!! She would freak out. So we agreed on money (which I put into my savings account and have completely forgotten about) and small gifts, chocolate, candles simple but thoughtful things (that wouldn't raise suspicion).
I really enjoyed my experience with him but I think I will just defer my sugar life until I move out for university atleast I won't have anyone looking over my should, asking questions e.t.c. it's just too risky. I was surprised initially with the first gift of £ that I received from him over dinner. I do not work, my parents do not give me much of an allowance so I was just shocked and that's why I decided to put it in the savings account as I didn't want to just blow it and then ask myself what on earth did I do with the money. It's good because atleast I will have enough to buy things for university, the deposit for accommodation and so fourth.
And in relation to the relationship. I met this "guy" he was aged between 26 and 29. Tall, dark and handsome, he ticked all the boxes including personality. I am not really a relationship person but I fell in very deep, gave him my all, at first it was rosy and then things just went down the drain. He is a nice person, he was sweet and he cared but I realised that he wasn't for me because he changed, turned into something else. It just made me realise that I should never, EVER! Give all of my love and fall in too deep, especially with someone who doesn't give sugar and sweet things. I am now focused on my education and I am not looking for a relationship AT ALL! I can not be wasting time with these "average" young guys who can not improve/change my life in anyway shape or form. Being with him just added stress into my life and I wasn't looking for that so it had to be cut short.
Thanks for reading ladies. XO
